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| i suppose a blog could be equal a journal or diary or even a planner. well in my planner this year, i've written down things that have happened...or occured. and some of them i don't ever want to forget. incase this planner were to get lost, i think i'd cry so this is just to ensure it's safety. it's not going to be actually 2008-2009 but more of the actual school year. again this is for my own benefit but feel free to read it??
September 2 2008 : First Day Of School
September 12 2008 : Log Game at Thom Field
September 26 2008: iHop with Barbara, Nancy, Samantha, and Pahoua
October 3 2008 : Homecoming Game at Thom Field
October 4 2008 : Dance Decorating in Commons 2-5 pm, Dance at 730, Met this one guy from ec
October 11-12 2008: Suppose to go to Tea Palace for International club but didn't...went to Mall of America instead to go school clothes shopping
October 18 2008 : Brandon's second birthday
October 22 2008 : Samantha's sixteenth birthday
October 24 2008 : Larry's eighteenth birthday, sam's party at Noodles and Co at 6, *the day this shit all started*
October 25 2008 : Leaf Raking for Make a Difference Day 8 am-12, Went to King's Buffet afterwards, started talking to him again... realized some feelings..."i messed up big time"
October 31 2008 : Halloween CASS party, people thought i was 21 LOL
October 30 & 31 2008 : Fall Break
November 1 2008 : Barbara's Halloween party, i was the only one not drinking besides chee
November 7 2008 : WKCE testing - probably one of the most boring things in my life
November 8 & 9 2008 : The Wausau Hmong New Year - probably one of my favorite events of the year, wore traditional hmong clothes, hung out with a long distance friend*, got into a fight with someone*, got interviewed for the news, went to michelle's house, ANDDD this one super handsome gorgeous guy finally called me from MI
November 10 2008 : WKCE testing = DEATH
November 11 2008 : Started observing for behind the wheel
November 12 2008 : WKCE TESTING = DONEEE
November 15 2008 : ACT PLAN TESTING, Nancy's sixteenth birthday
November 19 2008 : Eggroll and Nava sale for International Club
November 25 2008 : International Club Potluck - some people really pissed me off even my teacher could tell my eyes were swollen from crying the night before, but another friend confided in me out the girl he liked... i started to get suspicious it was me
November 26 - 28 : Thanksgiving Recess
December 2 2008 : Sick from School
December 4 2008 : Michelle's sixteenth birthday... start to notice someone new
December 5 2008 : Neema came to wausau
December 8 2008 : A certain girl turns into a certain bitch, talking crap about me on the internet
December 13 2008 : Parent's Christmas Party - a really good night with chee
December 15 2008 : Went to Christmas Concert for West - by myself LOL
December 18 2008 : The someone new asks me to the hockey game at DC everest, i got really excited because of it and went even though i had a shit load of homework and stayed up until about 3 to do when i came home
December 19 2008 : Christmas Caroling with International Club at the mall - didn't go and chee was sad
December 20 2008 : Another hockey game at DC everest with the someone new
December 24 2008 : Christmas Break starts
December 25 2008 : The someone new tells me a sad secret about his previous girlfriend - whatta bitch
December 27 2008 : Travel to Minnesota for Olson Christmas
December 28 2008 : Go home with Kayla with us
December 30 2008 : Go out to dinner at Texas RoadHouse with kayla, brothers, and j
December 31 2008 : Crappy new year's eve with kayla, haha, it really was. My mom was soooooo mad at me.
January 3 2009 : J broke my heart...
January 7 2009 : I almost cried at school because he was ignoring me
January 9 2009 : Sick from school
January 10 2009 : Neema came to wausau
January 12 2009 : J came up behind me and covered my eyes....He got it back to normal...kind of
January 14 2009 : Exams - American Lit and Spanish II
January 15 2009 : Scheduled exams but cancelled school because it was too cold
January 16 2009 : Also scheduled exams but cancelled school
January 17 2009 : Suppose to go sledding with International Club but everyone bailed
January 19 2009 : No School
January 20 & 21 2009 : Make up exams we missed...was really worried about my grades, but went to mall and kings buffet with steph, barb, and nancy
February 4 2009 : Snowshoeing at CCD, omg that was hell
February 6 2009 : A good friend came to sleep over and we watched gossip girl like all night haha
February 8 2009 : Out to eat with my old foreign exchange student and mom
February 12 2009 : Wrapped flowers at Mary's house for the Rose Sale - C gave me a ride
February 13 2009 : Barbara's sixteenth birthday, handed out valentines, c gave me 4 roses
February 14 2009 : Neema came to wausau, went to the mall
February 15 2009 : Yao's Grand Dragon with C - an amazing night, our valentines date
February 16 2009 : No School
February 20 - 22 2009 : Confirmation Retreat - "CHURCH CAMP HELL?"
February 22 2009 : C came over to my house because I missed him
February 23 2009 : Sick from school
February 25 2009 : CNV + ALK
March 6 2009 : Fish Fry
March 13 2009 : Fish Fry
March 16 2009 : Went to Chior Concert with dad to watch C
March 19 2009 : C called me, i was soooo worried when he was crying
March 20 2009 : Fish Fry - Spring Break Started
March 23 2009 : Mom's birthday
March 24 2009 : My sixteenth birthday -wasn't very good
March 25 2009 : One month anniversary - gave me the beautiful bracelet and piano musicbox, and went out to eat at iHop, i gave him the sweater he lovessss
March 27 2009 : Fish Fry
April 3 2009 : Fish Fry
April 10 2009 : No school & Fish Fry
April 12 2009 : C, Berkys, Cris all over for easter dinner
April 17 2009 : Went to a Midsummer Night's Dream to watch barbara with nancy, c, and nancy's guy
April 18 2009 : Boring wedding
April 23 2009 : Sick from school
April 24 2009 : No School
April 25 2009 : PROM - wonderful night however there was some drama... i think i lost trust of one of my girlfriends & it was also our 2nd month anniversary
April 26 2009 : Confirmation Ceremony - OMG 3 HOURS
April 27 2009 : No school- Drove for the first time in behind the wheel I SUCK
April 28 2009 : Job Shadow at Acupuncturist = weird
May 6 2009 : King's Buffet with C
May 7 2009 : Ice Cream with C
May 8 2009 : Watching Basketball at Grant
that's all so far but i'll keep adding... | | |
| i promise, i won't bother you anymore. i just want you to be happy, and if that means it's not me... how can i say no to that? i asked what i needed to ask, you said what you needed to say. what else is left? to go back and pick up the pieces off the floor. please, don't think of it as " i don't care". it's not that. don't think that for a second. i just needed to know. unfortunately, you know how i feel. you've used to be right where i stand today. i'll be okay, so don't worry. just be happy, for me. that's all i can ask of you now. | | |
| i wrote this poem for someone special obviously, it's just i can't share it with anyone because they'll will think it's for someone else. but i read it to the person who it was actually meant for and he liked it. so i decided i would just post it up hear. sorry if i sucks XD he is the hand that pulls me through, he is the one that knows the truth. he is the one that wipes my tears, he is the light that leads me. he is the one i see in my dreams, he is the air i need to breathe. he is the love that i don't have, he is the light that leads me. he is the voice i hear when i wake, he is the listener in the dead of night. he is the one i can't forget, he is the light that leads me. | | |
| november eleventh two thousand eight
well all i can say is that, hmm, i guess some of the things that have happened... i never really thought they would turn out this way. they just twist and turn and tangle themselves everywhere. but i guess that's just life. and you can always look ahead to that glimmer of hope. you just never know where life will take you. up and down, round and round. but there's always the surprise lurking around that corner. it's been a long ride from where i was to where i am today. but i'll be happy and content, we'll just have to see where all it all takes us. and i'll sure as hell try. i'm damn sure i'll try. and you want to know why? because i'm sick. i'm so sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself. and i'm sick and tired of trying to please everyone. because i can't do it. i can't, i tried. so you may ask where just is your happiness? well i'll tell you. it's right here. i'm going to find it or i'm sure as hell going to try. wait and see. | | |
| TODAY I WROTE THIS;
mood: understanding?
okay so maybe this will sound a little selfish... but i was thinking today. just about things i guess. and i came
to the realization that i have never wanted to hurt anyone, including you. i know it still happened, gosh did it
happen...but it was never intentional. i never had intent to hurt you. i wish some people would realize that,
and it's just like, hello i didn't want it to happen. it just did. things happen. gosh, why is everyone so stupid at times? | | |
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